Things I Never Said
Goodbye, Goodnight
Elise Okusami: guitar, vocals
Eva Lawitts: bass
Andrew Whitehurst: drums
you’ve been reading too much into
the things i never said
digging around between the lines
and twisting it up in your head
goodbye, goodnight
you’ve been gone away a while now
i didn’t think it would take so long
but i thought i heard you on the radio last night
singing our favorite song
goodbye, goodnight
A Crack in the World
Elise Okusami: guitar, vocals
Eva Lawitts: bass
Andrew Whitehurst: drums
There’s a crack in the world
and we’re all hanging on, hanging on trying not to fall through the void
but sometimes there’s only so much you can do
and it’s hard to have big dreams but it’s
hard to let those dreams die out, too
remembering when you were a kid
and you thought by now you’d figure out, figure out most everything
but it’s all as confusing as ever
and every day adds something new
and some of those things are bad enough
bad enough they almost crush you
it’s not what you wanted but it’ll do
it’s not what you wanted but it’s gonna have to do
who knows if we’ll be here tomorrow
but everything, everything, everything still matters you know
and you can say you didn’t
but we’ve been over this again and again
you never hear anything you don’t want to
and you don’t wanna hear about the end
it’s not what you wanted but it’ll do
it’s not what you wanted but it’s what you get
and who knows things could get better yet
taking pleasure in simple things in between
hot tea on a cold fall day
and dressing up for halloween
and i’m still trying my best
you know it keeps getting harder and harder every day
when you see the news on the tv, on the radio
but i’ll keep trying to keep the skies blue anyway
Hide Away
Elise Okusami: guitar, synths, vocals
Eva Lawitts: bass
Andrew Whitehurst: drums
i saw the fire the day that i met you
crackling
felt the flames up close and licking my face
and it was too hot, too hot to bear
and it ate up, ate up all of the air
we felt the ground shifting slowly
underneath
the land pulling apart beneath our feet
so we wait for wait for the rain
and we try to invent games to keep ourselves sane
now we settle on
the edge of the world we just left behind and
now we settle down
and watch from afar as our world comes to an end and we
hide away
and waste away all of our afternoons and
hide away
and wonder how many afternoons we have left
i lost the fire a year after i lost you
it fizzled out
it got too hard to keep stoked and healthy
i feel too old too stiff to move
there seems no point no light without you
now we settle on
the edge of the world we just left behind and
now we settle down
and watch from afar as our world comes to an end and we
hide away
and waste away all of our afternoons and
hide away
and wonder how many afternoons we have left
you were slipping away
and there was nothing i could do about it
and you were getting worse every day
and all i could do was watch and wait
you would try to smile through it all
but sometimes you couldn’t manage that
and i was no help at all
and i’m sorry that in the end there was nothing i could do
and i’m sorry you had to watch your world crumble down around you
and i’m trying to forget the last time that i saw your face
but i think that it’s the one memory of you i can’t seem to replace
now i settle on the edge of the world we just left behind
and now i settle down and watch from afar as the world comes to an end
and i hide away
and waste away all of my afternoons
and hide away
and wonder how many afternoons i have left and i
watch and wait as i see everything falling down all around me and
waste away as the water dries up and the fires roll in and
i don’t mind or wouldn’t
if you were still here beside me
we’d hide away
January 21st
Elise Okusami: guitar, bass, drums, vocals
there’s a lot you don’t wanna think about
and sometimes you can keep it away for days
but you see something and you’re reminded
you see someone and you’re reminded
it’s all you can think about
it’s the only thing you think about
but it’s not something you wanna talk about
so you just keep talking to yourself
the words spinning around in your head
over and over and over and over and
i think i think too much
thoughts spilling out of my head
and learning how to swim
finding homes in other parts of my body
i can feel them bubbling just under my skin
running through my veins just a little too fast
a little too thick to flow right
clogging up the tunnels and turning to sludge
then my toes start to tingle
and my hands feel like they might fall off
there’s a gaping hole in my chest
and i can feel the wind blowing straight through me
i think i think too much
thoughts spilling out of my head
and learning how to swim
finding homes in other parts of my body
thoughts growing legs
crawling under my skin like bugs
swimming through my veins
swimming upstream to spawn and make me worry even more
i think i think i think i think….
Heartbeat
Elise Okusami: guitar, vocals
Eva Lawitts: bass
Aaron Silberstein: drums
i’ve been waiting a while
for you to find me
for someone to feel like home
i’ve been waiting a long time
for the world to feel steady
for the sound of your heartbeat
and i’ll know this time
that we’ll be fine
‘cause i can’t help but feel all right
when you’re by my side
i’ve been waiting a while
for you to come back
so i could see your smile
and i’ve been wondering a long time
how it would feel to let your heartbeat
slowly lull me to sleep
i’ve been waiting for a long time dreaming
a long time wishing
a long time longing to hear
your voice calling my name
and i’ll know this time
that we’ll be fine
‘cause i can’t help but feel all right
when you’re by my side
I Would Find You
Elise Okusami: guitar, bass, synths, vocals
Mike Okusami: drums, synths
and if the sun never came up tomorrow
how long do you think it would take us to notice
would we wake up in the afternoon with the curtains closed
(we’ve been staying out too late)
and just assume it had come and gone without us
(we’ve been sleeping through the day))
if the world fell apart tomorrow
i would find you
i would come for you
‘cause all i ever wanted for you
was to have everything you wanted to
to do anything you wanted to
and if the sun never came up tomorrow
do you think we would even notice
‘cause we’ve been keeping to the shadows
and hiding in the dark
(we’ve been staying out too late)
we rarely see daylight anyway
(we’ve been sleeping through the day)
if the world fell apart tomorrow
i would find you
i would come for you
‘cause all i ever wanted for you
was to have everything you wanted to
to do anything you wanted to
and when the sun comes up tomorrow
i’m gonna get up to see it
just to make sure it’s all still here
(i still stayed up way too late)
the world hasn’t disappeared
(but i’m determined to be awake)
if the world fell apart tomorrow
i would find you
i would come for you
‘cause all i ever wanted for you
was to have everything you wanted to
to do anything you wanted to
so if the world went to hell tomorrow
i would follow you
i would stay with you
and if anyone tried to hurt you
i would keep you safe
i’d keep them away
to the end of the world together
i will stick with you
i’ll never leave you
and if you can’t go any further
i would carry you
if you need me to
Walk With You:
Elise Okusami: guitar, vocals
Eva Lawitts: bass
Andrew Whitehurst: drums
when you were depressed and
you put your head on my chest
and you told me
that you were tired of being tough
i took you by the hand and
told you i understand
and you told me
that could never be enough
but i will walk with you down the avenue though the streets are made of glass
and we will tread lightly on our heavy feet and avoid all of the cracks
it’s a fragile place that we’ve ended in and one wrong move could shatter
but in the end will it matter
when i was depressed and
i put my head on your chest
and i told you
i could never be enough
you took me by the hand and
told me you understand
and i told you
that my best wasn’t enough
but i will walk with you down the avenue though the streets are made of glass
and we will tread lightly on our heavy feet and avoid all of the cracks
it’s a fragile place that we’ve ended in and one wrong move could shatter
but in the end will it matter
but i will walk with you down the avenue though the streets are made of glass
and we will tread lightly on our heavy feet and avoid all of the cracks
it’s a fragile place that we’ve ended in and one wrong move could shatter
and if you’d asked me then i’d have told you that none of it would matter
but i will walk, i will walk, i will walk
The Sky Is Falling
Elise Okusami: guitar, bass, drums, piano, vocals
when i’m alone and i’m waiting by the phone
i’m wondering what you ever did
‘cause i never thought i’d be this kid
who just sits
snow’s falling down and it’s sticking to the ground
i can see it out my bedroom window
and i’m wondering if i’ll ever know
your secrets
the face of a clown keeps spinning round and round
in the blackness of my empty room
and he tells me we’ll see each other soon
not to fear
he laughs then he cries but i’m not afraid to die
so i look into his teary eyes
and we see through each other’s disguise
it’s all clear
the sky’s falling down and it shatters on the ground
the rain turns into splintered ice
and the clouds that used to look so nice dissipate
the houses start to fall like it’s the end of it all
they crumble like they’re no more than dust
is there anything left we can trust
we’re too late
when i’m at home and i’m sitting by the door
i’m waiting with my hand on the phone
so you’ll save me from being all alone in this hell
but if i say i’m okay will you ever go away
i’m living my life day to day
not the lead in my own play
can you tell
Sunshine
Elise Okusami: guitar, vocals
i’m going outside today
i’m feeling like things might be okay
i’m getting out of bed today
i’m feeling like things might go my way
right now i’m okay by myself
i don’t need anyone else
sometimes it gets me down but i usually come around
i’m okay on my own
i’m living on sunshine
i’m feeling just fine
i spent the day outside
read a book then lay back and let the sun warm my eyes
right now i’m okay by myself
i don’t need anyone else
sometimes it gets me down but i usually come around
i’m okay on my own
Credits
All songs written by Elise Okusami
recorded at Wonderpark Studios by Eva Lawitts and Chris Krasnow, and by Mike Okusami at his studio
Mixed by Mike Okusami
Mastered by Dave Eck
Cover Art by Mary Streepy
Artwork Layout by Karl Kuehn